Losing Hope by Colleen Hoover
Release: December 19, 2012
Publisher: Atria Books
In Hopeless, Sky left no secret unearthed, no feeling unshared, and no memory forgotten, but Holder’s past remained a mystery.
Still haunted by the little girl he let walk away, Holder has spent his entire life searching for her in an attempt to finally rid himself of the crushing guilt he has felt for years. But he could not have anticipated that the moment they reconnect, even greater remorse would overwhelm him…
Sometimes in life, if we wish to move forward, we must first dig deep into our past and make amends. In Losing Hope, bestselling author Colleen Hoover reveals what was going on inside Holder’s head during all those hopeless moments—and whether he can gain the peace he desperately needs.
In Losing Hope we meet Dean Holder – Holder to everyone. After he does something he thinks helps his twin sister, Les, she kills herself only for Holder to find her body lying on her bed. After, he goes through a hard time, or downworld spiral, and is sent to live with his father for a year. After he turns 18, he goes back to his mother’s house and debates dropping out of school all together. But then he meets Sky, a girl who looks like an older version of his childhood best friend who was abducted right in front of him when they were younger. When she proves to be someone else with a reputation to rival his, Holder is still attracted to her despite how much she doesn’t want to be around him. They slowly develop a relationship and secrets come to light.
Losing Hope is Hopeless told from Holder’s perspective – something truly fascinating because it definitely didn’t go how I was expecting. I remember seeing Colleen Hoover post updates while writing or editing Losing Hope and I thought it was going to be more … trying to think of the right words to describe this thought … blunt, unemotional, and filled with more swearing. I say this because that was my original interpretation of Dean Holder, a guy who is straight forward, honest, and angry a lot.
Oh, am I happy I read this!
I read Hopeless in – holding, checking of Goodreads in progress – 2013, a few months after it’s release (also according to Goodreads) and I think that book was the start of my Colleen Hoover worship. I never really wondered what was going through Holder’s mind while reading Hopeless. I was happy to see through Sky’s eyes and I thought the story was complete to me. After reading Jamie McGuire’s Beautiful Disaster and Walking Disaster and hearing about Losing Hope, I realized that I didn’t have the whole story. My only issue was that I didn’t want to read it immediately. I’m easily distracted so I had other things I wanted to read more than Losing Hope. I finally read it – four years later – and I’m happy I had the separation between the halves. I was able to appreciate Holder so much more.
I don’t just want to spend the next who-knows-how-long praising my love for Colleen Hoover’s writing and her incredible way of telling a story and grabbing me and tugging me into the book, no. It’s very repetitive and I’m sure dull.
Colleen Hoover has the greatest way of taking characters and bringing them to life in a way I don’t see often. She makes me feel and cry with them, hurt when they hurt, want to hug them when I feel they need it – this just leads me to hugging the book and/or kindle and sobbing which leads to very strange looks in the break room. She creates a world where I find little pieces of myself, not everyone is two-dimensional, there are clear flaws that create the character and make them human.
Her writing is very realistic and I fly through the words because it’s very much a conversation in my own mind. When I can see it clear in my mind, not like a movie, but as if I’m a part of the world, I’m a fellow character, I’m very appreciative of the writing and the world.
I do have one teeny tiny, itty bitty issue, there was a scene that had no resolution and, to me, left a little plot hole. I just want to know how that ended and maybe I missed it. I still need to scour the internet for my issues.
Still, it’s a solid story, a great addition to a story as important as Sky’s from Hopeless.